|Willow (the_willow) wrote,|
@ 2010-08-13 14:57:00
|Entry tags:||games: dao, therapy / therapy day|
Because I Couldn't Get Baked Mac & Cheese....
I spent $10, on an alternative, foody self soothing, meal thingie. But the major part is the 1/2 hr I spent in the grocery store going 'round and 'round the aisles bargaining with myselves. At the end of it, I couldn't even remember why I'd apparently promised myself mac & cheese in the first place. But I definitely needed soothing at that point.
In better news, washed my hair last night! Yay! It only took 30 mins. More yay! I also trimmed it first. But once washed, the weight of it stretching it out while it dried means that basically I remember I trimmed it, but it's difficult to see lengthwise. I'm glad though. The length was getting annoying. And I found myself realizing that the whole point of my dreads is that they reflected a turning point for me. They're an off-shoot of self care. Which means the moment they're no longer making me happy, they're no longer a reminder of self-care, they're a reminder of unpleasant feelings. So, I got over the confusion and mild cultural OMG and trimmed off about 2.5-3 inches and feel much better now. Also, they're CLEAN! Yay!
Therapy is heavy duty and will be for a while - so I'm not quite comfortable talking about that. It involved yet another side-quest down the road entitled 'Mom'. Yeah... *sighs*. But I'm going to go enjoy the rest of my rainy Friday now by looking up DAO mods, and how to use the mod manager(s). And thus there might be babbling posts on things that don't make sense and the whee of modifying.
As I explained to my therapist today - you can't change a book. Once it's written, it's written. Sure you can do fanfiction to CHANGE IT. Or read fanfiction. But the book, remains the book. I'm excited that before I deal with possible fail in this game, I'm going to be able to modify it. How the heck cool is that?!! Very, I think. It's wonderful that I can keep on changing it, but I love the thought of not having to deal with the unrealistic bodies, the overly feminized armor (showing cleavage for Heaven's sake! How impractical is that!), the brooding thuggish looking official brown person, the lack of other brown people, the overly sexualized femme fatale (seriously I am SO happy to have found a modest version of Morrigan's outfit - you don't even KNOW!).
Heh, seems I've started the babbling here. But my point was before I begin to immerse myself in the world, I can make it more comfortable for me - vs with a book where hopefully a review will tell me of the painful, fail filled spots and then I get to decide whether the hurt outweighs the possible gains. I think I'm ok with spending $30 for dialogue and pretty cinematics - knowing I can have free modifications. And uhm, yeah, more money on extra memory (which I need anyway).