|Willow (the_willow) wrote,|
@ 2011-05-18 05:17:00
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Rationality? What's That?
Today I will attempt to get some anti irritation eye drops. This is important because I think I'm switching al ot in upset over the blurry eye business and thus going from 'I obviously feel someting in my eye and it jut won't get out and is probably scratching the cornea thus not letting it heal - or maybe tha'ts mucus blurring me' to 'OMG how could I have eyesight on the 12th and then have one eye just GO BAD the day after!' and then being so upset I can't cry, which sucks, cause crying would probably help me clean my eye out.
Anyway, I hav been trying to wash it out using a small cup. Finally thought of the fact that it's 'saline solution' and when I was little it was salt water. Also tried some bicarbonate. Thought maybe it got a little better last night when I did that. But wasn't sure if it was useful thinking or not. And of course, well, I do a LOT of reading and not being able to sets me off into the land of EXTREME upset again.
And it turns out clinic os suck no longer has eye care as part of their mandate. Which means a referral. And, somewhere around here, I already have one, for that freaky dilate your eyes and get peeked at. It just arrived this month. No idea where I put it. And the thought if it freaks me out since I AM so very photosensitive.
So there's a lot going on. Plus side? I made it through the second inspection. Now just have to deal with my eye, near doctor's visits (and thus my health), various refferals (so health again) and somewhere inbetween all that - My MOTHER. Who is being very much MY MOTHER and wants to buy me a house again. Yes, I'm serious. Yes, I AM serious. She's bringing up 'I know you like your current place, but she did almost sell right out from under you and you need stability and'....
Can you even imagine going through this while freaking out about my eye? And dealing with an Amazon Merchant who gave me reboot response; send an email, get a response, next morning get a new email asking for details you JUST sent. Supposedly I'm being refunded. But they haven't as yet contacted me on HOW TO SEND THEM BACK THEIR STUFF. Which freaks me out some.
Blurry eye plus brand new kindle? Also much pouty.
So yeah, coping? What's that? And there's still I had made PLANS to do this year, that haven't happened yet, because I've been busy juggling.
So yeah, I don't mean to disappear and shut down and shut out. But my plate has BEEN full and every new little thing equals instant overload.