|Willow (the_willow) wrote,|
@ 2011-06-14 16:52:00
|Current mood:||prodoundly upset|
Didn't Make My Appt
Left the house early; 90 mins before appt. First bus came w/i 15 mins. By the time I got fed up and left to at least make some mild shopping so bus trip was worth it, the second bus, if it arrived that second, would not have made the 20 mins late window before an appointment is automatically cancelled.
I had books, my kindle, water, etc. I was prepared to deal with the doctor. I was hoping to have a long conversation, ask questions, maybe ask about tests, WORK ON MY HEALTH. Instead I spent an hour getting increasingly upset and anxious. I'm currently in fricking tears and i ended up doing retail therapy (though for me that means buying things I've actually researched I need, but w/o pondering the price or quality) - So inexpensive cutting board and oven mitts.
I am so upset. SO upset. I've called my therapist, told him what was going on and explained to him that I need an advocate to help me get transportation help to important doctor's appointments and it can't be assholes from the clinic of suck - because they were supposed to work on this and I didn't hear damn from them until a letter writing me off as a patient last year.
No comments because I'm just so damn upset. I really wanted a positive doctor's appointment experience. I wanted to hear some sort of good news and feel in control of my health and health direction. And instead none of that happened and I'm left wondering once again about how much of a flake I'm coming across - despite all my fucking efforts.