|Willow (the_willow) wrote,|
@ 2011-10-24 21:46:00
I am so hungry.
But I don't want to cook anything. I'm not sure I can. I have some severe itching I've been trying to deal with. I feel depressed because I thought I'd found a supplament to my meal times and instead, OMGosh am I paying for it now. The thought of looking at food, depresses me. I don't want to try and figure out how my brain should make any meal. I just look in the cupboards and they all look bear, given how many things I've had to set aside.
I think if I leave the house right now, the only option would be a CVS for chips for dinner. And possibly not. It's getting late.
I know there's a positive here. And the positive is that I'm no longer just taking this stuff for granted, thinking my skin was be acting up again, etc. Last night I didn't catch it, I thought the air was dry. Today as the itching increased and went to my skin, I realized, oh, this won't be solved by a bath and buying a humidifer. I didn't catch it this morning, when I saw my eyes were puffy and crusted over. But Im just... I'm tired. And I can't talk to my mom about this, cause everytime I mention a reaction, she's... not the most supportive if it's outside the realm of things she doesn't have interest in me not eating.
And the relentless itching...
Oh yeah and the pimples and other grossness on my scalp, overnight. Seriously. I just...