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So,
I'm reading on LJ, cause the damn NewsFeeder has quirks, and I'm reading up on Fuckwitter07 and I'm seeing that some people have begun to put forth their 2 cents on art, pornography, pedophilia and actually doing something right to protect children in the world.
I told someone last night the reason I was initially fed up with LJ and how the craptasticalur (so bad I had to make up a word) customer service has just compounded the issue.
But now I'm going to make a post here. Cause there are people trying to find me, or friending me and I want them to know where I stand.
I kept a public journal discussing my ups and downs, physical aliments, intrusive suicidal thoughts, chronic depression and more - because I wanted a record. I wanted to possibly be a site that someone stumbled onto where they found someone who knew what it was like - someone surviving.
Though I can no longer find them, I can see in my mind at least two sites that stopped me from slashing my wrists. One in particular who accompanied her story with comic art. It was someone understanding the lonely aching pain of it, the edge-buzz crazy gnawing worthless depression, the plastic feeling of unreality.
And she was still moving - putting one foot in front of the other.
( This got long )
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Why is it that attending the High Holy Days costs so much money? Are there alternatives for Jews without lucre? Jews currently stalled in the cash flow? I know it's at a discount and yet $300 is beyond me.
*will have to make do*
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| IBARW: Grab Your CoC meme - C. Fillmore |
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I've thought and thought about what CoC I'd write about, if I wrote about one. And at first I couldn't come up with any specific name. I love Teyla in SGA, and the chance to explore Athosian culture and the strength of her character and how she gets to be strong, warm and capable at the same time - but I don't faithfully and regularly watch SGA.
I thought about Worf from TNG and DS9. Sure he's a noble savage. But more than that to me, he was someone with his feet trapped in two different worlds, trying to find a balance. It appealed to me.
And his history - orphaned by war, to be found by loving humans, and to enter into Starfleet because Starfleet found and saved him when as a child he lay by the body of his dead mother under rubble. His is a wonderful journey of conflict and confusion and divided loyalties to becoming a Chancellor and adviser to the leader of his people.
The journey of 'the noble savage' where he only becomes more noble.
Maybe I will write about him one day. My Trek roots and love aren't as hidden or numb as I thought they were.
I'd thought also to write about Eureka's Allison Blake. Strong woman, strong single mother, intellectual and to the point without being a ball buster, motherly and caring without being locked into that role. Best of all she's central to the plot. You can't go a whole episode without seeing her somewhere and having her say something important or be important somehow.
But in the end, I decided on Fillmore.
( Mommy, what's the Mod Squad? )
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I just paid $5.00 to Scribblit. Maybe I really, really like bright cheerful green, yes? JournelFen didn't quite make me feel this way, even though I wouldn't have had the five dollars to donate.
I'm glad I can donate something now.
IJ... feels temporary. I feel not ready to trust. I'm irked by having to accept cookies for everyone I want to post to. And somehow something's messed up with it and firefox so that it doesn't read me as logged in a lot of the times and I have to go back now, with every personal post and edit in order to use my icons.
I feel irked and homeless in a very odd way. And though I have my LJ backed up via it's export with XML. LJ-Sec can't handle 2000 plus posts. So I don't know if I'll ever be able to import everything the way I'd like.
*much sighing*
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Remember to click the thing to backdate entries (though you may still get a couple of problems)
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