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Now that I have less to worry about re: my knee. Or I at least know it's not something scary like bone cancer and is more than likely regular muscle strain, inflammation and some aspect of Fibro - I've begun to get all tense in the stomach about moving. It's like I have the energy to devote to it.
Right now I'm forcing myself to rest, since I have therapy AND PT tomorrow and I'll need to be rested to get through it. I know despite the anxiety I suddenly feel, limping to do five minutes of something here and something there will only make my knee take longer to heal and make me more irritable.
But logic doesn't interact well with the pit in my stomach.
I heard from the landlord-to-be today and she's fine with me mailing things in. I know I can go over the paperwork with my therapist tomorrow and get things sent off in the mail at the very least by Thursday. Once that's done, I know the steps to take re: getting a firm move in date and renting a truck, etc. Not to mention hobbling about to do the easiest possible packing I can and cleaning/tidying where I can as well.
And if things get delayed a week, I did end up paying for the -entire- month of May, so I'm ok there as well.
It doesn't stop the twists and turns in my stomach, however. It also doesn't stop me second guessing how much I decided to pay on my bills and how I'm managing my budget. It's like knowing that my knee isn't cancer or anything degenerative (rheumatoid arthritis is), all of a sudden all my usual moving anxieties are popping up like cartoon spring daises.
Sometimes I really wish emotions responded better to logic.
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