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Willow (the_willow) wrote,
@ 2008-05-02 23:04:00

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i hate people, online: life

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There is a community on iJay right now, named Kristallnacht.

It's a Harry Potter RPG GAME.

Their info says they're well aware of what the name means and that for their game, an AU wherein Grindlewald won, they find it appropriate.

Maybe this is just a kneejerk reaction on my part. But right now I'm amazed at my ability to string words together. Because I feel something between utter sadness and knife's edge rage.

They have images all over of broken glass.

I...

I am personally upset. Just me. Just by myself. And I can't even begin to describe why, because it's all a visceral gut thing. It's odd. K*** doesn't affect me. But this particular K word seriously does.

ETA 2 things:

1) I did not expect this to hit metafandom. When I'm upset, I journal. Finding out about this made me upset.

2)

kdorian, who did find it, promoted on

asylum_promo on May 2nd, had a conversation with them here and offered to pay for rename tokens. They declined. I have the page saved.

Son of Edit: The link was put up so the conversation could be seen. Twas never my intention for folk to go over to that comm and complain. Don't ask me what I figured would happen. This is beyond me being upset now. Though for those who've seen the comm name because they have the promo asylum friended and who feel a need to say something now, because seeing me upset helped them find a voice - I'm not pointing fingers at you or saying anything about you. Cause finding a voice is important.

Cousin of Edit: Me a little more coherent.

Aunt of Edit: I was going to suggest people complain on the FAQ page of the comm, then decided against it. They didn't know they promoted their game on the Day of Remembrance and well, I don't know. I'm feeling odd sympathies alongside my upset and anger. However, some of you found it anyway. I... Thank you. I was writing about being upset when I first wrote this post, and feeling crushed and being in tears. Thank you, sincerely for speaking up and out, for being angry and for KNOWING that intent means nothing when it comes to having hurt someone. Thank you.

Parole Officer of Edit: The FAQ page no longer has any comments. They were either erased, screened or the whole post turned to disallow comments. I only have a webcap up to about 5:38pm, EST -

seperis. I didn't go back and keep updating the cap because I didn't think they'd take that step to making this WORSE. Erasing the voices doesn't silence them. It just makes people take broader actions - while screaming louder.

Sad Momma of Edit: So the name's been changed. it took the whole damn day and who knows how many people for something to happen, that some humane thinking would have avoided. Ban_set remains my friend. I started off hurt, confused but somewhat sympathetic. I ended the day, stone cold pissed off, STILL hurt, and hoping never to meet them face to face or my shoe might meet their heads. 9:52pm - They've changed their images.

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	kita0610 2008-05-03 03:51 am UTC (link)
	I hold out very little hope that'll happen, esp. since they knew what they were doing when they named it. OTOH, I'm sure some of their best friends are Jews! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	the_willow 2008-05-03 03:54 am UTC (link)
	I can't even snark. I want to. It's protective. But that word just makes me break down into tears. I feel kind of ridiculous. And yeah, I don't think they're likely to change a darn thing, not when they're comparing that to fiction. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

kita0610
2008-05-03 03:57 am UTC (link)

Don't feel ridiculous, you never know what kind of thing will hit home. *hugs*

This reminds me of that SPNRPS h/c fic that had Jared and Jensen visiting the Killing Fields in Cambodia so they could make each other feel better after with with the healing butt sex.

No. Really.

A friend of mine (Cambodian) posted a very polite letter in reply to it. You can imagine how that went.

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the_willow
2008-05-03 04:11 am UTC (link)

I saw that. I was very WTF about the fic too (though only saw revised version) and the claims of dog piling and pc correctness etc.

I'm now in awe of her being able to do that. Because right now I don't think I'd be on pointe. I'm a little girl again, learning about humanity's cruelty to fellow man for the first time.

I'm old enough now to think around my reactions and ponder that inner little girl and if I was just in shock that the Scourging of the Shire had a real life parallel.

But then? I didn't talk to my German crush for weeks after that. I don't think he ever got back in my favour.

It'd odd that slavery felt at a remove, but then 80% of the people I saw every day were black or mixed. At the time slavery felt very far away, whereas I had great aunts who were around when this was going on.

I've told you how I first learned about what happened. My utter shock and horror that this wasn't fiction and that there were all these people who didn't get a happy ending and even if I imagined one for them, it wouldn't change anything.

I think the next time someone calls me over-sensitive, I'm going to tell them the problem is that that they are desensitized.

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kita0610
2008-05-03 04:51 pm UTC (link)

"I'm going to tell them the problem is that that they are desensitized."

Or just basically insensitive. Because REALLY.

Never feel bad for what makes you feel bad, if that makes sense. It's not being over sensitive, it's being just sensitive enough to be human.

And, I meant to say, yay for your friend for taking point.

(*comment edited because now this has hit metafandom and I really don't need people pointing to me and saying "hey THAT Jew doesn't seem as upset as everyone else so it must be ok!")

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	the_willow 2008-05-03 05:00 pm UTC (link)
	I am not looking forward to idiots. I am usually pretty good with idiots but last night I felt that if some idiot said something I wouldn't be able to snap back. I'm still uncertain as to how I'd manage - though if it happens I will try. But 'that Jew' ? What next? Only Jews can feel upset about it? Or only Jews who grew up knowing they were Jewish? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kita0610 2008-05-03 05:10 pm UTC (link)
	You know how it goes. "MY WIFE WAS OK WITH BOOBGATE AND SHE HAS BOOBS." hulksmash As for the rest, I didn't have the energy to lead on this one, but if anyone gives you shit I will be there with bells on and a large clue bat to back you up. &hearts (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	the_willow 2008-05-03 05:19 pm UTC (link)
	hugs Thank you. (Reply to this) (Parent)

rydra-wong.livejournal.com
2008-05-03 12:20 pm UTC (link)

This reminds me of that SPNRPS h/c fic that had Jared and Jensen visiting the Killing Fields in Cambodia so they could make each other feel better after with with the healing butt sex.

Yup, that was exactly what I thought of too.

Can fiction and fic tackle serious real-life issues well? Yes, sometimes.

Is a RPS PWP or a Harry Potter RPG likely to be an appropriate medium for talking about genocide?

...

And dear god their FAQ explanation is made of fail.

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