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Tweak says, "Tweak's got s-o-u-l...SOUL"

Willow (the_willow) wrote,
@ 2008-05-02 23:04:00

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i hate people, online: life

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There is a community on iJay right now, named Kristallnacht.

It's a Harry Potter RPG GAME.

Their info says they're well aware of what the name means and that for their game, an AU wherein Grindlewald won, they find it appropriate.

Maybe this is just a kneejerk reaction on my part. But right now I'm amazed at my ability to string words together. Because I feel something between utter sadness and knife's edge rage.

They have images all over of broken glass.

I...

I am personally upset. Just me. Just by myself. And I can't even begin to describe why, because it's all a visceral gut thing. It's odd. K*** doesn't affect me. But this particular K word seriously does.

ETA 2 things:

1) I did not expect this to hit metafandom. When I'm upset, I journal. Finding out about this made me upset.

2)

kdorian, who did find it, promoted on

asylum_promo on May 2nd, had a conversation with them here and offered to pay for rename tokens. They declined. I have the page saved.

Son of Edit: The link was put up so the conversation could be seen. Twas never my intention for folk to go over to that comm and complain. Don't ask me what I figured would happen. This is beyond me being upset now. Though for those who've seen the comm name because they have the promo asylum friended and who feel a need to say something now, because seeing me upset helped them find a voice - I'm not pointing fingers at you or saying anything about you. Cause finding a voice is important.

Cousin of Edit: Me a little more coherent.

Aunt of Edit: I was going to suggest people complain on the FAQ page of the comm, then decided against it. They didn't know they promoted their game on the Day of Remembrance and well, I don't know. I'm feeling odd sympathies alongside my upset and anger. However, some of you found it anyway. I... Thank you. I was writing about being upset when I first wrote this post, and feeling crushed and being in tears. Thank you, sincerely for speaking up and out, for being angry and for KNOWING that intent means nothing when it comes to having hurt someone. Thank you.

Parole Officer of Edit: The FAQ page no longer has any comments. They were either erased, screened or the whole post turned to disallow comments. I only have a webcap up to about 5:38pm, EST -

seperis. I didn't go back and keep updating the cap because I didn't think they'd take that step to making this WORSE. Erasing the voices doesn't silence them. It just makes people take broader actions - while screaming louder.

Sad Momma of Edit: So the name's been changed. it took the whole damn day and who knows how many people for something to happen, that some humane thinking would have avoided. Ban_set remains my friend. I started off hurt, confused but somewhat sympathetic. I ended the day, stone cold pissed off, STILL hurt, and hoping never to meet them face to face or my shoe might meet their heads. 9:52pm - They've changed their images.

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the_willow
2008-05-03 08:30 pm UTC (link)

There are times I've been back-up, and I've rolled up my sleeves and journaled about something and been there in comments to back up a friend who'd been hurt by the stupidity or just on general principle.

I'd forgotten how whirlwind it all is when you're not prepared for it. I forget sometimes who's on my flist but also, importantly, who feeds my journal. So having the impact of having this spread so far and wide is a reminder all over again that this journal/my online presence here isn't as isolated as I often think.

I feel sorry for the maintainers. Being bombarded by angry, hurt people cannot be easy to handle. And they likely thought they'd dodged the bullet of the comm name because they've been promoting it for a little while.

But they're also regurgitating the same bullshit I'm getting tired of: Intent Alone Causes Harm. If I didn't intend racism, sexism, or other ism, then the action/statement CAN NOT HAVE BEEN...

And that is some old BULLSHIT.

It's like telling someone 'Hey, I didn't intend to knock you over with my car / step on your foot / jab my cigarette in your face - so that means you're not really in pain / having to deal with my actions and we're automatically square.'

It's a premise that makes no sense and I'm sick and tired of individuals attempting to hide behind it, especially individuals who SHOW that they were aware that there would be problems.

Waking around with a sign that says 'I may burn your hand or face with my cigarette. I don't mean to'; doesn't give them the right to wave the burning cigarette around without thinking or the right to ignore the people who say 'You just burned me!'.

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lavendertook
2008-05-03 09:03 pm UTC (link)

Not isolated is both a good and bad thing, too.

I'm not feeling sorry for the maintainers--criticism is being leveled at them for good reason, but they should see that the anger in that thread is being stoked by their community member there, and aimed at her as well deserved at this point. If

hotfuss is speaking for them, as she seemed to be in refusing the token for the community (and she's not a community maintainer--WTF?), then they are promoting an antisemitic space. Her comments go beyond clueless appropriative defensiveness.

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