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Tweak says, "give me some vampire"

Willow (the_willow) wrote,
@ 2009-10-30 21:11:00

Entry tags:

introvert i am, lack of spoons, my family, spoon theory

Kerthump
So...

Figured out why I was so drained and depressed last night. My littlest brother's called me every night this week to chat and I could hear the house mess in the background behind him. That added to my dislike of the phone and not really being all that chatty on a daily basis (it's a spoon thing) likely led to low energy, drained feelings and emotions -> la la la depression.

Mentioned this to my mom to ask her to get him to email me. But she pointed out that he doesn't get much attention from his other siblings because they're teenagers and he's not. And despite my 'omfg' of last night concerning his animals, he got up on his own this morning, and fed them all and watered them all and cleaned the bird cage and took his dog out to do his business. And apparently told mom that I had put him on a schedule.

I definitely need to figure out now, how to balance my introvertedness and spoon juggling with positive effects of my presence on littlest brother who's all 'I haz a sister and she luuuuuubs me.'

	jackandahat 2009-10-31 08:41 am UTC (link)
	I wonder why people don't realise just how much pressure there is in being told you're a good influence on someone? Hmm. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	the_willow 2009-10-31 05:24 pm UTC (link)
	I think you're supposed to be too flattered to care about the pressure of suddenly being a role model up close and personal. Also it's a type of celebrity status you're supposed to want. Developing a relationship with my littlest brother is cool and all, but yeah, I don't actually want the pressure of being that influential. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jackandahat 2009-10-31 05:32 pm UTC (link)
	That, or they're just so pleased to have it off their hands. (Reply to this) (Parent)