In attempt to relax and calm down, am looking at a LET'S PLAY for Mass Effect 2. Was originally looking at it, because friend was playing early this week and letting me make decisions via online. It was a thing to do, and interesting to get commentary from someone I give quite a b it more than a damn about. The LET'S PLAY style videos is what got me so hyped up last year, I spent, for me, serious money on DAO. Even though I'd been slowly talking myself into waiting for the complete pack with all the downloadable content etc, etc, etc... Now I pout, since I even got frustrated despite enjoying that game and haven't played in months and also never finished.
Mass Effect? ME2 via this LET'S PLAY has taught me the only thing more boring that a video game battle scene, is a scifi futuristic shoot'em up, long distance weapons type battle scene. Just on and on and on. On the one hand, the series I'm watching skips some stuff they consider to take away from the cinematic drama of what they're doing with their LET'S PLAY. So hacking, shopping etc, poof, gone. Whereas for me? 10-20 or MORE minutes of shoot, duck, switch guns, reach for ammo, (I'm guessing here btw, can't make much heads nor tails of the screens and things go pretty fast) shoot shoot, throat punch, repeated phrases and grunts...
Uuuuuugggggggghhhhhhhhhhh. I like story. I like puzzles. And I can handle some day to day minutia; eating, healing, shopping.... But OMG, really? I think the main thing keeping me from gong back to DAO and would keep me from other games, is that I need to work on my 'But.. but...' As in other people think it's cheating to have a kill everyone so I can bloody move on, command code. I'd reached a place of comfort with what I needed to enjoy a game when dealing with DAO. But now I realize, the money I spent on DAO is GONE. It's not coming back. If I ever want to have fun in that place again, I need to just buck up and do it. And for future - no matter what the buzz, I wait for things to cost 10-15$ bucks. Then they'll be my interactive cinematic media.
ESPECIALLY if I can personalize stuff to have PoC leads. Oh hells yeah. I'd pay 15$ to watch space or fantasy epic saga with PoC front and center.
So, when it comes to pre-scripted cgi gaming - I'm not a gamer. I'm a media consumer. I'm good with that.
**looks at time** Was so tired earlier, forced myself awake. Now UP, no idea how I'll keep going really for therapy. But my sleep schedule is messed. I guess Vit B is my wake-up friend and maybe tonight I'll go to sleep regular. End of this week, landlady stops over. I should... tidy or something. If I can pull myself out of this hole to do it. Also tomorrow? Chocolate. Seriously. And people who get in my way are getting stabbed w/ my keys.
PS: One thing that really disturbs me about ME2? There's all this talk about humanity. And well, Jacob's the only 'brown' person I've seen. And I think one civilian somewhere might have been Asian. But on the whole, it's a bunch of white people determining the course of 'humanity', Really everytime they mention 'humanity' I feel othered. Makes me wonder where the hell Jacob even came from. Other crew, random humans on stations, Miranda, the iMan; white mcwhite bread white. With Miranda having a scifi 'patriarchy' problem and apparently no intersections. If it turns out, however, the coloration was all the player's choice... though as far as I know, ME's engine doesn't allow for customization for random backgrounders and team members etc.
You were right. I just put six squares of intense dark chocolate in some milk, microwaved it a little bit and made myself the. perfect. cup of chocolate. It didn't really need sugar, I added just a dab. But I think popping a single mini marshmallow in there would have done the same trick.
Intense chocolate flavour. Creaminess. And it all not overwhelmed by sweetness.
Now to figure out how to factor this into my buying of stuff. Do I buy baker's semi-sweet and keep it around with a couple cans of evaporated milk for quick pick me ups? Would that be cheaper than candy style chocolate? I need to find out.
I woke up around 3am because there was scratching. I thought it was my cat. Then I realized I could see all four of her paws and they weren't moving. Something's trying to dig a hole in my wall. So I emailed the landlady and am now too paranoid to go back to bed.
Seriously, the rats in my city are The HUGE. They'd eat NYC rats and burp and chitter about the appetizer. They're SCARY ASS RATS. They're foot and a half to two feet long rats. Reepicheep would say WTF at these rats.
So being unable to not envision a vicious hoard coming to get me / trying to get in (seriously my gf at the time and I threw a pebble at a group of them once thinking they'd scatter. They rushed us!) - I'm up.
I just had a piece of 70% chocolate. It was alright. Not as delicious to me as the 55% Milk Chocolate. There must be a place -somewhere- that puts milk into darker chocolate. Cause I don't want sugar/sweetness just milky creamness.
It makes me feel as if I'm not appreciating the chocolate. I am, I just happen to know what my favourite is.
ETA: Cacao Rserve by Hershey is very very close to my ultimate chocolate bar/squares.