Well, assuming anyone's out there and not busy fighting the Empire. I need to buy a router. Things have chaaaaanged in the years since I last looked into this. And while I know some stuff (mosty yay encryption and privacy) - I do not know enough. I'm very much in a plug it in and forget about it frame of mind. I'd like something relatively inexpesive. That is - 100$ stuff will gain serious cuteye.
So any suggestions? Basically I just want to be able to connect via Kindles.
The bad/urgh part about having a wonderful and successful landlady? Is that when circumstances arise and you ask her to go to the grocery for you, to buy you some lamb? She comes back, despite you mentioning 3.99 a lb lamb. With 9.99 a lb lamb. But I'll pay the price and shut up, cause today. TODAY!
Been up since 8:30 when someone came to cut the grass. And I rushed to put something by the gate to keep them from blowing grass all over my portico area. They noticed me, disheveled in my jammies and actually cleaned up with a broom for once.
But the day dragged on... and on, upstairs neighbours did things even the landlady noticed and was all 'WTF?' And then inspector didn't show up till near 3, and there's still a need for an electrician to come out. And there's still inspection on Tuesday (for which my ass needs out the house). And then is finding strength to go up for my brother's graduation (the baby's graduating! OMGWTF how and why did he grow up?!!).
Other pluses, however? Including the fact I now have lamb, to hell w/ the price cause this week's been shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiite. Did I remember to post about losing all power in my sockets for about 90 mins? It's the same thing that now needs an electrician. But, I went ahead and bought memory. Everyone's all 'buy a new computer'. But this is memory I've been trying to buy for years. And it turns out, that I may have bought the right kind earlier, but they just don't work w/ the old ones. So now I don't have 3g like I wanted, only 2g. And I'm deciding if to buy more, and any 'new computer' I buy will be a laptop for travel.
Games disappoint me, so I don't know that I'd want to buy a 'gaming' anything. It's cool and all, in concept. But even as I want to 'dabble' with The Witcher 2 and 'dabble' with DA2 (for whom the only reason I'd be there is because Fenris hits all my 'young lady has to swoon' buttons. And the fighting seems, interesting for a mage? ME3 knocked the playing any ME 'video game' out of me. Read some books, sure. But I can't even watch a let's play of ME2 right now, I get so 'two finger salute bioware, ea and the ME team wtf?'
And huh, until this very second, I damn near forgot Skyrim existed. So, yeah. Not to sure 'ability to play games' is high enough on my list o thingies.
Are there even any $200 laptops left? I think not.
Annnyway. Memory. And also storage (clear) - so I can see things and not forget they exist or be unable to find them (moving things around to put into them? I found two pairs of leggings I'd been searching for ALL DAMN WINTER).
Also, bracelet came. MedicalID pretty purple & white braaaacelet. And my landlady mentioned using RoadID when she runs. Which is what I'm thinking of getting for my Dad. And if this bracelet doesn't work out, might get for myself. But I think this pretty pretty thing will. I 'm having to get used to having something on my wrist. But I can see myself wearing it. I am currently wearing it. It fits forma and informal decoration needs (RoadID, would be very informal). And it came w/ a lovely little pouch. And more importantly? An Emergency Alert card for my wallet. I thought it would, but didn't see any mention on this most recent trip to the website. But there it is. (Thank you very much for the gift certificate sami - I shall be protected JIC now.
Meanwhile this week? EXHAUSTING.
And then some. I even had to take an anti-histimine so I could get to sleep and stop sniffling, stopped nose, itchy runny eyes-ing at dust n'stuff from cleaning and I guess just 'summer' - it was not (so far) a cold.
If you're near an Ikea? I'd grately appreciate you picking up a container of Elderflower Concentrate for me. Pretty. Pretty. Please. It's something that can only be picked up at a store; it's a day trip for me to get to said store, especially if tis just for one or even two bottles. And the price to quality ration is exceptional.
ETA: In case you hadn't guessed, had elderflower syrup w/ soda this past Chrismtas, also elderflower liquier. So so scrumptious. I never knew. I never. knew.
On international long distance calling cards? Doesn't seem to be any with reasonable rates and just a connection fee. To me, maintenance fee every 2 weeks or every week - looks to eat into your bought time like whoa if you use the card for more than one call. Is it better to see if anyone in my area sells physical cards rather than pick up an emailed card? Anyone know?
How would one go about looking for a Leverage / Hustle crossover fic in AO3? Or anywhere else for that matter? Though I admit, even though I'm convinced it must exist, I'm not sure I'll like if if I do find it; ismis, writing style, etc... Also, peeping at the AO3 stumbled me over Nathan/Elliot which is just so effing wrong and NO. And seriously have you noticed how often he and Hardison hug? And how Nate's just that old bugger with the planning? Seriously, what? Ugh. Anyway, feeling somewhat bruised at the sight of that.
Yes, blah blah your pairings, my pairings whatever. But what chemistry is even supposed to be there? And how does that not mess up team dynamics if it's all hate canoodling all the time? Just ugh.
Obvously my brain's been demanding heist programming (are there heist books? Are they any good?) And well I've run out of Leverage - I actually put up with Nate because OMG, I do really adore the Parker, Hardison, Elliot Show; guest starring Sophie Deveraux.
Haven't watched those eps yet, but am aware HUSTLE goes to the US at some point. And we know on occasion the folks from Leverage go to the UK and Sophie would know all the players.
If anyone ever wants to write me presentfic....
I'd especially like a fic where Mickey Bricks is doing; angsty hero leader of the gang, and Elliot says "He's just like Nate. But less irritating."
Anyway... Heists, preferably on evil mogul sons of filthy lucre.
Someone on my readings list asked about bags and got recc linked to Sammoon(dotcom). I too need a bag, I've realized that, well, bookbag straps tend to slip, and also put weight on my shoulders and neck which is likely more painful than I think; especially when slippage causes all the weight to be on one shoulder. And then I am quite likely carrying around things I don't need. So I've been trying to think about what my essentials just might be. But I've no idea of what size bag I would need; I just know, lots and lots of pockets; open slip pockets, zip pockets, pouches, etc. I have fiddly bits that I like tucked away, stuff I want safe, stuff I want within easy reach; etc.. etc...etc... You should have seen my fce (it certainly felt whoa and surprised) when I realized handbags can have a little backside zip pocket for stuff.
Things is, while I have figured out that I like the feel of a tote bag, provided I can also switch to a shoulder or messenger bag if needed (but with a tote bag the point should be if it starts to hurt and/or bulge too much, I have too much stuff in there) - I actually had to do reasearch to figure out 'open slip pockets' and I've no idea where one buys things. I mean, landlady (with whom I've also had this discussion, especially when I saw how much she can store in her bag) suggested street vendors. But you can't 'return' with a street vendor and how do I know the bag can take a licking? I need something that can handle dirt and scuffs and doesn't run colours; how do you test that on the street? And I have experience with cute little purse handbags that don't do anything but frustrate me because they're not big enough for my needs and I really hate the thought of transferring things around etc.
Also, I'd pay 25$ for a bookbag, maybe even 30$. But a hand bag? Somehow my brain isn't switching over. And I'm really not into owning things I have no need for and do not use; it adds clutter and confusion and dissatisfaction to my life.
So far all I know is that I like woven/straw/braided styles and those natural colours; they make me think less about cheap dye and peeling outter skins.
Meanwhile in other news, I'm pondering if I want to spend 60$ on a new pone, or just buy myself more airtime and deal with my current's phone very limited text storage; even though my sister seems to text easily and be comfortable with it and I want contact with her cause school's 'a thing'. It'd be an unplanned for expense.
Totally Random: Mayo = Lower Stomach Cramp. Doesn't matter how little. Extra = nausea. Find another way to deal with tuna. Suffering is unpleasant, self.
Dear World (ahem, the few people who bother to click and come over here)
I am recovering from the panic and stress of not having had computer access for a week, during which with my routine disturbed I forgot to take some needed medication and am now well, dealing with that. I have caught up on 11th Doctor Who and Haven and well, I need comfort_distraction as food isn't much of an option for me. It's all self scratch in the kitchen these days with no take-away or delivery. And most of the rest, well, not good for me.
The thought of picking up a book unrecced makes me itchy nose and eyes close to tears. I stare with a kind of awe at people who continue to read authors or works with huge chunks of absences or phobic comments or any of that. Because I just - it makes me twitchy in the head.
So suggestions would be nice. This is me asking for help. Because too much thinking and sorting on my own is liable to stretch out my already stretched brain; which is needed for cooking for myself and cleaning the house so I don't drown in fur balls and/or dirty dishes.
This is the point wherein my thoughts have petered out. But media of some sort? Non hurty media? I may be able to hold for a while by rewatching The 12 Kingdoms/Junni Kokki. But Moribito WILL make me bust out the tears and overwhelming emotion is not the righteous right now.
Oh PS: I've been making w/ the phone call errands and stuff. All important and busy like, dealing w/ stuff. I'm guessing that's part of the brain porridge as well.
PPS: I may try the LOTR DVD Extra, but am wary, since I've had a recent 'spork' reaction to things tolkien. But I just had the mental image of Zvi reminding me to crack them out, so they're going on top the tv to remind me. Oh... geeze. I could totally watch them ON the computer, couldn't I. **ponders this**
Going to bed shortly. In pain. Agitated. Mother and siblings supposed to visit today, briefly. OMFG, I can't even. Anyway. Mass Effect (1). That thing involving the Consort, ( Spoilers & Personal Upset )
Is Rizzolii and Isles (tv series) the Lesbian version of The Sentinel? Is there fic? Would it make me tear my hair out by focusing solely on the lives two white women in an all white town? Cause I've seen a couple of episodes (including groaning through and flicking back and forth the 'lesbian episode') and I admit I get the same feeling with them that I did with Jim and Blair of 'But aren't they already together? Why do they keep trying to stick love interests in there?'
I saw this banner and damn near thought it was the real deal. Also? I agree with a comment I saw that said 'I've never seen any two straight women ever have this much chemistry - and that's because two women with this much chemistry are called LESBIANS'.
And I admit, Isles as the long lost daughter of an Irish Mob type, and Rizzoli as a possible 'But when are you gong to get married and have with the babies' put upon Italian Lesbian daughter of an Italian Mother seems like uhm, not peanut butter and jelly since peanuts seem no longer my friend - but chocolate and chocolate :p
Anyway, before I go even sniffing around Ao3, perhaps there's an author someone might want to recc who won't make me scream? Jim and Blaire fic can get away with a lot, cause there's Simon and Joel and Henry and most people seem to remember Cascade was pretty damn multiethnic. And of course Peru pops up all over. (and I do a lot of sighing sometimes, cause I love Sentinel despite all the appropriations).
I have greatly enjoyed CJ Cherryh's Foreigner series. I have looked at the summaries of her other works, however, and concluded they would not be for me. The Alliance/Union universe intrigues some... but well I have no confidence I'd be reading other than lots and lots of white people having adventures. Even in Foreigner, there is only ONE non Caucasian human mentioned (and who gets dialogue ). I enjoy Foreigner, because I enjoy the Ateva and the fact that despite his power in the moment, the lone blonde white dude is a TOOL to be used by non human, non white powers, charting their own fortunes. Plus, said white dude often tends to have a clue about what he doesn't know and how detrimental assuming he and his know all, would actually be. And the society is set up thus that I wince less at all the noble, devoted, dark skinned servant types who see to his varied needs.
Are there other books out there about (I won't hold an ice cube's chance in hell to get actual POC's but) Alien Cultures charting their own fates with humans NOT being on top, not getting to dictate policy, etc? And said alien cultures being a unique culture as much as possible? And a little less - let's dress up some non-white culture?
Once upon a time (as close as 2 or 3 years ago even) I had a lot of squee over the Elves in 'The Obsdian Triology / (M.Lackey, J.Mallory)' being Japanese and a touch Mongolian (among certain tribes). And then I began to realize that once my glee at seeing certain cultures touched had faded, once the adrenaline rush was over, it was still a load of the combined crap of 'White Savior Who Becomes Better Than The Best Of Them' mixed with 'Their Ancient Old But Stagnant Ways' mixed with 'Oh what earthy esoteric knowledge these Others have'. Which of course all gleamed bright when I read the second trilogy in that universe and became appalled at the blatant 'Those gullible brown skinned desert dwelling people, need a honkey - etc...'
Again this year I am grateful my quality of life has improved, thus that my brain is no longer fogged with certain drugs, extreme exhaustion and fuge and I can follow more complex plots and detail in writing. It's helped spark things in my brain, my little writerly soul is peeking a tiny whiskered nose out and sniffing the air. I hesitate to bruise it with a lot of HONKEY SHINES BRIGHT. HONKEY SAVES THE UNIVERSE. AND IN THE LAND OF HONEKY ONE POOR HONEKY FARM BOY WOULD BE KING.
So apparently Wiscon is having something called a Genderfloomp party. And apparently the point is for people to dress gender queer, or gender fluid or someting? And Ican't figure out if my reaction is because I associate Wiscon with automatic fail, or if there's something iffy with 'dressing up gender fluid' akin to 'dressing up as a certain ethnicity' - appropriative somehow, and with disregard to the lives and/or situations of the people one is emulating? Copying? Etc.
Right now I'm hoping this is just my brain going 'Wiscon - Ugh'.
|01:34AM | Sun, April 24th | 2011
|This Makes Total Sense In The Larger Concept Of My Brain's Shennanigans
Uhm... So people who use wifi hotspots? How annoying or not annoying do you find the search for them? Do you regret not being able to just have a connection to the net whenever you want? Or is it not a big deal at all for you to hunt down a connection in order to tweet a question, or look something up?
Vinaroz Cookware? Would any of you consider ceramic interior over aluminum with silicon exterior? I really, really want to buy this Wok - but I have a hard enough time spending money on myself/for myself (outside of gifted monies) and there are no reviews or anything on this product.
Why don't I have a Questionmark Icon?
|12:47PM | Mon, March 28th | 2011
|A Bag, A Bag, My Kingdom... Where Is My Bag?
I think.... I think perhaps I have reached a place where I need a 'purse' AND I need a bag, and it is MESSING WITH MY MIND!!!
Ahem, this is not a tomboy ting, this is very much a me thing; a Willow thing. I don't want extraneous items to remember. I want to be set and comfortable all in one. But, but but but... there are things I want in a bag ON my body. And then I also want the ability to pick up library books and carry them without strain, while using a cane. And perhaps pick up a few groceries - the flexibility and options of not being tied to one store, because it delivers and it becoming a thing to buy something on sale larger than a pint of ice-cream.
But the thought of using a rolling backpack -well one, they're not really all that comfortable or pretty and I'm at war with myself between the need for bright colours and the need to feel more of a grown up. It's dawning on me that my backpack, and my current messenger bag/backpack have been my purse.
Days I'm on the bus I see women with lunch bags, purses and then another bag. The minimum seems to be two but the average is THREE; purse, lunch bag, shopping bag or book bag! I cannot handle all of that, even if I didn't also need to use a cane. I'd end up forgetting something or forgetting which bag held what.
I'm not sure I could handle having my wallet in a bag that's rolling by my feet. And while in winter I might be able to carry it in my coat, I do feel less comfortable with it in my coat and what about non coat wearing seasons??
PS: I realize I'm likely not to get much feed back, lots of folks seem to be leaving iJay. Awh well.
PPS: Icon was Bday present from friend. Friend is le coolest!
ETA: Why has no one figured out that backpacks with wheels need a flap to cover the wheels when they're being worn as a backpack - because dirty wheels on the back = mess!?
I don't know how long the current 'fix' will last. But system restore worked. System restore never works on my harddrive. I've always gotten a 'too bad, so sad'. And now I'm weeping. Because if I'd thought system restore might work (and wasn't clutching at straws) - I wouldn't have tried to see if my Acer Recovery Discs would -repair- vs reinstall. And I wouldn't have pressed thewrong button, and ended up hard power offing the computer and somehow messed up my external hard drive - which is now reading EMPTY EMPTY EMPTY. My external hard drive where I'd been putting everything, thinking it'd be safe.
I used Partition Mount and Find. It found my external harddrive file - but it's still reading empty. I used a Linux LiveDisc to check and the drive STILL reads as Empty.
I don't know where to go next.
My sister wrote me and said: If the night is always darkest before the dawn, then well I EXPECT TO BE BLINDED when that elusive snake of a dawn shows its head..
And I want to cry, because history shouldn't repeat itself, damnit. Though I admit, while I am still looking for that bright sun, I have lived, luckily, with a brighter blue sky and the merest hint of possible pink on the horizon for a few years.
If anyone has suggestions on coping for a 13 yr old girl, who's even having trouble escaping into books these days - I'd appreciate it.
Does anyone have good recommendations for a humidifier? I am in desperate need of one - having finally found and cleaned mine, only to discover it is no longer working. Amazon.com isn't very helpful and well, I'm well aware that the further we go into the future, the cheaper and crappier American made products are due to built in obsolescence.
All suggestions very welcome. I grew up with the warm air options, have experienced the cool air options (in winter even) but currently am not leaning towards a particular. I don't want to spend above $50 - because even if *you* bought yours 10 years ago for more than that and it is still going strong - there's been plenty of time to cut quality control in the meantime.
If someone paid a reasonable price and have had something for about a year - that would be best. But again, all suggestions welcome, including if you know ways to just have a big bowl of water by the bedside and have that work.
|11:51AM | Sat, September 25th | 2010
|For Coloured Girles - Tyler's Taking Credit
Has anyone heard about this? Does anyone know if it's true that Perry rewrote the script entirely (which was originally done by the author of the book) so he alone can have writing credit?
Where would one find, not terribly offensive DAO fanfic?
I am open to reccs (anime predominantly) that will entertain and enthrall precocious youngsters (imagine the brainiest character you know - at age 5 - in my case it's Dexter meets Max Gibbins meets Blossom Power Puff).
Fun and funny, mild adventure great. It all doesn't necessarily have to be Chi's Sweet Home or Chi's New Address.
Bright colours a must. With crisp art-styles.
Cute & adorable animals welcomed.
Big eyes fairies not so much (they tend to do nothing but look pretty or scared and I've been informed that's extremely boring).
Sad non-heart warming bits not encouraged.
|09:52PM | Sat, June 26th | 2010
|Has anyone been to Otakon? Is anyone I know going to Otakon?
Has anyone been to an anime con? Was it worth it? Or would the money be better spent on anime itself?
Not that I want to disappoint my sister who's thrilled. I just want to make sure there's the best bang for everyone's buck. And my experience with Anime Boston had more to do with enjoying the company (Yay Fickleness) than the panels (which often had too long lines to make it worth much of anything). I missed the Club/Dance thing cause I was exhausted. I loved the Manga Library. I loved seeing all the various Cosplays. And I enjoyed finding manga I'd wanted and saved up to buy.
But Otakon is quite a bit more expensive than Anime Boston was and I'm the one buying both tickets and I can't help thinking how much over a hundred dollars would bring if I put it towards books or dvds for said little sister.
Ok, my brain is just way too exhausted to do as much research as I'd like. So flist, is anyone on here techy? I need to buy a new monitor and I'm thinking of a refurbished widescreen gateway lcd (and getting a two year replacement warranty). I currently use a crt monitor, set to 120 dpi and there's a cat in the house, so there's some worry of sneaky desktop investigating while I'm asleep; there's been mention of a wobbly stand on the gateway.
Good, bad, indifferent?
I hadn't originally wanted a wide screen, mostly because I do other things besides watch movies on my screen. But right now I'll take what I can get at decent pricing.
I'm also hesitating because quick searching did bring up that people who'd been having similar visual problems as myself with lower dpi's are fanswooning over 1600x1200 resolution in 120dpi. The above mentioned gateway? 1440 x 900. I've no experience, really (a few moments on my local library's newest setup is the only thing that comes to mind) with anything bigger than 1024x768.
I'd really like insight on the difference, since if I stick to refurbished monitors, the difference is likely to be only $10 more.
I want to do right by my eyes.
I know I came across the name recently but I cannot remember in what context. My first instinct is that it had something to do with RaceFail. But I want to know for sure before I scratch them off my 'possible things to read list'.
Anyone else have a clue?
ETA: While I'm asking for help. Anyone has access to Fast Lane Episodes with the original music?!
Y'know how you lovelies often ask me if there's anything I want? And I usually can't remember at all?
Well - Feel free to get me or knit me socks. Seriously Sock Porn 4 Life. Adorable sock slippers with bows or cute little ankle socks, with poofy balls, or sweet wool knit knee-highs or even sexy thigh-highs. Herringbone patterns, meshy stuff with diamond holes or cool stuff with thick braids.
Sock Porn is my open present suggestion.
Also fingerless glove porn - but that sounds more difficult. But wow, crochet gloves sounds cooler than teenagers.
[Naughty Alert] ( Repeat: Naughty Alert. This is a total raw wool craving under here. )
For those of us trying to stay safe in the midst of all the anger and outrage and hurt we feel, which could be triggering a myriad of further emotions, the most obvious being a sense of violation and betrayal....
Cause you don't need to post or comment about any of what's going on. It doesn't make you weak. Keeping yourself safe is wise. Recognizing limits, is wise.
So, things that have been cheering me up when I want to burst into tears - Zoom Zoom. Do any of you remember Mazda's commercials when they had the theme/song?
The Japanese Version Here
The English Version Here
This one makes me cry, but it's a happy cry <-- ETA
These things make me smile and relax me. I'm sure others will post other comfort thingies, so we can keep our community within a community as safe and calmed as possible.
I added the text 'Fashionista' to this base (made by skywardprodigal) a while ago. I've never had the chance to use it. I'm not really all that big into clothes and fashion. I know for the most part what I like. I'm slowly putting together what I like with what's comfortable for me and easy to put on and take off no matter my mobility or pain levels that day.
Can anyone else think of text to put on the base so maybe I could use the image more often? I love it. It's beautiful. She's beautiful and looks fierce.
People on DW? You'd have to go to http://the_willow.insanejournal.com to see the icon in question.
PS: Anything referencing 'Strong Black Woman' just seems too tame.
I have something of a psychological block with some insurance companies. Allsate and Statefarm make me hiss and spit as if they were Tor. All I think of when I think of them is how much trouble they gave my family after the fire ten years ago. And while the main problem seemed to be lack of enough family photos showing all of our belongings (who takes pics of their basement?) - I still loathe them.
And I'm still really, really wary of other insurers. And it doesn't take much at all to find people talking about nasty agents and arbiters, with horrible service and consequences for many, many companies.
So what I wonder is this - Should I go for a completely irrational choice? Screw shopping around and price comparison? Is that very unwise? Because the one company I want to use, wasn't part of my family's lives because of insurance, but for extended benefits/other aspects of the company. And I only have positive associations with them. It's like some long ago seed of brand loyalty has manifested into one big ass redwood.
Brand loyalty vs pragmatic economics (et al) - it doesn't seem very adult at all to make such a choice on the side of good feelings. Especially when I'm aware that this company too has complaints online. It's just more difficult for me to factor said complaints into my decision making when weighed against 12-15 years of good feeling.
I lost the first paragraphs of this last night. The draft didn't save. And today has been fucktastically sucky, emotional, stressful.... I don't know if it's hormones, fear of my health, depression, some new form of mental craziness or what. But I want to write down this damn thought I had about D&D so by george and gum I'm gonna.
Dungeons & Dragons is a language, I think. But no one else seems to see it that way. I stare at the stat numbers in the character sheets and all the feats described, and power levels and I read about encounters and loot and magic items and all I end up thinking is: Where is the effing story??!
At some point in my mild frustration (since I am trying to take it easy) it occurred to me that the story information I want to read is all there, it's just is code. I want to read something like
Party members tend to bind themselves together for common purpose, whether that be monetary or heroic and a good group consists of members who balance each other out and offer good possibilities for dealing with situations. Traditional groupings are....
And instead I get stuff about strikers and leaders and controllers - which makes me think about soccer and baseball, which again, is something of a hobby with a code.( Cause let me not bore every body. )
Suggestions on things funny?
Humor's supposed to help lessen blood pressure. I've tried some meditation tapes but they're oddly unsettling. Probably because I keep going - why are they so Asian? But who knows.
Right now I'd welcome funny, giggly stuff to watch. I currently don't have the LOTR or FOTR to watch and I think I'm unlikely to get them - haven't heard back from the person I sent the money to; again. And I'm not sure ROTK will help. I'm not sure, might try later today.
Looking for possibilities I can find online right now.
Emailed my mother to tell her I can't communicate right now. Now I just need to start feeling calmer and not upset / not worry.
Jews. Masons. Crazy + Google = Jackie Mason & The Jewish Mason Dixon Line.
Can I get a little help from any Jews on my flist? I was reading over at kita0610 and saw something mentioned "Judo Mason Conspiracy" also 'Jews. Masons. Crazy'. Can I get some links or extra context?
( I'm so confused )